Is there that one thing about you that drives you absolutely crazy? For me it's that I am a perfectionist! When I make a mistake, which is often, well not that often ; /, I really beat myself up about it. It is really getting old. I have to realize I am not perfect!!!!!!!!!!! Nor will I ever be!!!! I am giving myself such a hard time because I cannot visualize these screens at work unless I see the completed product to know where and what my mistakes are. And really what is the big deal, i just go back and fix it and no harm is done and it's in a TEST environment, so I don't know what I get all worked up about- but I do! And then I dwell on it and then i just get grumpy and feel like I am not what I should be, like a failure. And it's all me because I know this isn't true. Why does my head mutate reality and make me feel so insecure? What is the deal here? Hohum...
And tomorrow the dreaded dentist! AHHHHHHHHH! I really cannot catch a break.Ha! And my sweet Maggie is getting spayed tomorrow, poor thing. Which I a nervous for her. It's so funny how one day you are on top of it all, at least you think you are, and then the next you feel this slump... right now. I guess all I can do is pray for the present and a better tomorrow. But praying for a better tomorrow seems odd because today was a good day really. It's just the perfectionist thing I am trying to grasp a hold of... so be it, I guess. And then the guilt builds up because Husband is home and I feel like crappy because all I can think about is my so called failures. But right now I am putting an end to this feeling, a hot shower, a prayer, a cup of tea, and a relaxing evening with my husband ... who is home NOW! And that does make me smile so things are looking up!
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